Soul Mates

This creation of mine was inspired by someone who never believed in "Soul Mates"....I BELIEVE IN SOUL MATES....may be its my fantasy....may be its my dream that some day I will meet my soul mate....Whatever it is this painting is my attempt to make the source of inspiration to start believing in soul mates....because that "someone" is little bit more than "very special" to me.

Is there any meaning of all this....

Typical working day... send some mails to my colleagues..do that...do this...have u done it?..these are things I am not paid for..."Role based lead"... then my own work...server connectivity issues,Trio meetings,etc etc...Is there any meaning for all these? I do it well.From outside I may look like an expert.But I got no passion for this work I do.Absolutely no passion.Don't we hear often that we should do what we like to do? Then am I doing nothing? Am I the only one ? Does it really matter at all? I seriously get all negative answers for these questions.Something is wrong somewhere.I need to fix it.And I guess time is running short.And I am becoming increasingly weak.What is that I want to achieve ? I do not know it even now. That is a serious issue.I guess guys of my age know it. Haven't I done all the right things. Proved myself time and again.Then why am I not satisfied and contended

I need strength , I do not know where to get it from , but I have to grow up..I need to wake up.

Best Dreams

I believe every individual has a song of his or her own...A song which describes him or her...It feels like the singer has sung that song only for him or her..Its like a possession he or she has...Which can be appreciated time and again...which can be gifted to someone special...The other night I was on a mission to find my song..I searched in various websites , listened to some 30 odd songs from renowned as well as coming up artists .Finally I got this song.."Best Dreams" by Michael Rossback.The moment I heard it I knew this is the one...The one for me..

As kids we often think tht our lives will always be smooth...we will do well with our studies, job,we will find our love and everything will be happy....bed of roses...For a few it works out...things seems to fall in place always...They always have what they want...But I guess for many of "us" life is not a bed of roses...No way....We are like a leaf that falls on the stream...it gets hit by the rocks as the stream flows...sometimes the leaf get stuck with a larger rock...and then again the journey continues...Most of us lke that leaf...We get stuck and think that this is our world...and then something happens and we are asked to move on...and nothing stops..no one stops...

We have people around us giving advise, they tell us wat to do..what not to do..but the fact is that they never care much...because they have their own lives...and everyone has their own world..their own streams to flow with...but the silver lining is that...time will teach us all ..time heals everything.. and we always get along...time tells who we actually are...Whom we actually belong to..where we actually destined to be...

I am not so good with writing as I am with expressing things..This song tells very clearly everything...

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Song: Best Dreams

Lyrics( I wrote it down myself....few words may be missing..but then its fine:-) )

The world won't stop for u
Give you your space.
it just rools away ..to leave u with yesterday
girls are out for u but you know they are fake..
beacause u r just a name
you have given your heart in them.

chorus

{
but times find a way to show who u are
and u will come along and seeing your heart sing
dream ur best dreams
give love a way
live ur tommorrow today..... }

the crowd wont applaud u
make huss for u
n tell u , u r great
and spread all ur fame
because u r just a name
top will nevre do
its sad but true
at the end of the day they never stop......

chorus

count the star and breath some air
caress the lips that leave her there
when u love u someone ..more than anyone...

u live ur best dream
u find ur heart sing
give love away
live ur tom today.....

I do not like this.........

I never faced this way...Coming to work on Monday morning and feeling real dull.But things are real bad these days.I am asked to do activities which are monotonous and require no use of brain.Its like writing impositions in school.I used to hate doing it.(I mean every hates to do) But its the repeatability part which I hate .I am not definitely happy with my work.I do not know how long will I continue with this kind of work.I know I will reach a stage soon when I will say it quit.No matter what happens...Just leave it.Life on personal front was never very cool. Its worse now. Do not know what is right. What is wrong? I feel I am doing right.I feel its good for all.I feel it has a happy ending. But clapping never happens with one hand. At the moment I am the "one hand" trying to reach for the other hand, which seems to be quite far... I chose it nevertheless.I asked for it. And I am not going to give up.If time is the only problem. I will give it some time.But I am not going to give up fast. I am not going to let go this time.I want this badly...this badly. And someone told if you want something this bad , you will get it. Its matter of how much I want this to happen. It is a commitment for life.I know the dangers, I know the hurdles.The deadliest of all is to break my heart which got fixed very recently. But I chose this path.Strength to strength...trust to trust...