Today, suddenly I was questioning the reason of my very existence.What am I doing sitting in front of my laptop during"office hours"...Absolutely nothing.I have to change things before it gets out of hand.I feel the need now..the need for a change.This time I want to call my terms.I am preparing for it, hope all the preparations help in time.
A call from my ex in the morning ruined my mood for some time...buts its OK...it has been always that way..nothing new.She always calls me when she needs some help...or she has done some thing wrong....and she needs to justify her actions(even though she knows that she is wrong)...I am least bothered...I was not even supposed to spoil my mood also...She is just a PAST...This is what I have become.Least bothered about unnamed relationships.I have wonderful friends...and definitely I love hem all so much.
Tonight I fly to Pooona....george,otto,jupi....and hopefully Ipshi to meet up.Do not want to write here a few things which I have felt for the last few days..not a right forum..I mean I keep on thinking no one reads it...but I am sure some day this will all be read..
This is time now....if not now its never...all i need is to express my feelings....I am ready for any consequence...Atleast its not my weakness...whatever it is, I need to be brave, speak it out in right fashion and get things out of my heart...If things are meant to be it will , else , I will think that I have tried my best...gave chances...yet it just did not work..not meant to be...wish me luck more than anything else....tats the only thing tat I do not possess...:-)
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