It did not quite work out the way i wanted. But I am happy I told her everything.Expressed my feelings .Rest was anyway up to her. I tried my best and I have no regrets. No one would have done more.There is a thin line between getting rid of ego and loosing self respect.I was almost on the verge of loosing my self respect.I felt bad for a few days, was disappointed, and why not??...I have worked hard for it for a few months...But shit happens!!! Cant help it. One should respect others feelings and "No feelings". I do. So this is all I am going to write about this matter. Kind of "chapter close".I seriously now do not want "ek hi pyar apne zindagi me bar bar aya"...
Lot of other things going in my life....My new painting which is getting a great shape. Thanks to take 2. Never did a take 2 for any painting..First time. take 1 was a failure not so much because of me because I mixed old poster colour with new acrylic colours...The paper tore due to reaction with colour.Another instance of "shit happens!!!!!".But past is past. The present is beautiful with my new painting is stage 2(base colour).taking it slow. Guess wat I named my painting "Princess"....Indeed so as this one is for a princess:-)
My bird and me , we both, met an accident. Not so major one but still was enough to peal some skin off my palms. It still hurts as I type.Bird needed to be serviced. Realized that there is some problem with bore kit in engine. If they don get it done for free(its under warranty), I will loose quite a fortune.The worse is that i am without my bird now for almost a week.Miss it badly.
My trip to Ladakh looks like a reality now. Leave approved, air tickets to delhi booked. Just need to do some shopping.Need to work hard on fitness, strength building exercises and mental preparation. I do not want my cough to spoil my summit accent. A lot of Proteins, vitamins,fibres, fluids and ayurvedic stuff going inside my body.Hope they make me stronger,healthier and more good looking.My intake of alcohol is also reduced drastically. I hardly drink any these days.So is my smoking to some extent.hope It will be a good trip.I need one for reorganizing my self and getting the much needed self confidence.
